Tag Archives: denial

I’ll Say It, So Stop

24 Jan

“I love you”, such beautiful words
I once believe them to be gems

Spoken rarely but truthfully

Now they have become like a “hello”
A greeting, a passing thought,

A careless slip of the tongue

A habit to pacify all things petty
“I love you”, it has become words

Same as “I’m fine” to “how are you’s”

Where you utter them to indulge curious minds

But totally lie about the inside
I’ll say it. “I’m fine”, so  don’t ask anymore

I’ll say it.  “I love you”, so you won’t ask for more.

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Is This “IT”?

11 Sep

First things first, i am not in love with ‘this person’. 
Okay. Proceed.
When, before you fell asleep that night, ‘that person’ still lingers on your mind. 
When, before the night time, you were fighting over yourself about the concept of love. 
*By the way, it would be referred to ‘It’ by now. ‘Love’ is just too much. 
Again, proceed.
When, that morning, you heard from that person and suddenly your heart seems to be a grenade about to explode from your chest —
Then you start to realize something —- BUT you stop that thought and think…
‘It’ would never be enough. 
Maybe? 
Then you torture yourself even more, you think that whatever it is you feel, its not ‘IT’. It’s just the idea of ‘IT’.

No More

28 Jun

Behind this wall, I hear a family in grieving.

Two children fighting,

 for a father who isn’t living.

Two children arguing,

 “Father just spoke to us! He isn’t dying!”

Two children crying,

 “Papa!”, “Papa!” … until their voices start cracking.

Adults try to persuade them,

“Your father was only waiting for you, children. 

You had time together but he is no longer breathing.

Let go now, children. No more waiting.”