People are People

 

WHEN you stepped out of this world
You are sheltered at home
and as you grow, you’ll have your school, your church
They look at you and hope for the future

WHEN you debut into this world
You are embraced by those in the room
You dance till dawn, you’ll feel unbreakable
and the next day, you’ll still have your peers, your dreams

WHEN you’re done with school
You are praised by all
and the next day, you’ll still have it all,
but maybe even eyes waiting for your downfall

WHEN you’re looking for a workplace
You are pressured by it all,
you might set aside your passion,
and just catch the next available place, but not for long
(So you say)

WHEN you submit yourself in that rat race
you’ll get tired, but still save face
you remember those prying eyes
and you get on, you smile, you wave
(So you try)

WHEN you’re getting restless
you remember those praises that pushed you to just drive
“Just be Someone, it doesn’t matter what but be Someone”
and you believe, you just might become someone
(Or not)

WHEN you feel you’re too old for your age
you feel you have become part of this world
and you think kids are too spoiled, they dream
you’ll want to go back, be that kid, be Anyone but Someone
(So you think)

WHEN you feel lost in the game
but winning in the eyes of peers
you realize you have been deceived
the praises have misled you from your dreams

WHEN you get out of that game
the eyes would stop looking but glare
they’ll loose hope for your future
and you won’t care

WHEN that time comes
maybe you’ll doubt yourself
the confidence might be swayed for leaving was not that easy,
Anyway, YOU’RE JUST GETTING STARTED.

WHEN you feel down
remember you’re at the bottom of going up
you’ll get there somehow, because you care
you have owned the game, you’ll dare

SO, push through, forget the wounds you’ll get
Forget the flawlessness, forger being perfect
Disappoint people who followed what others paved them to go
Enlighten people who believed you’re getting lost to reach your rightful place
Some place you’ll make to become Somebody you’re proud of.

Sakripisyo ng mga Bayani part1

Argument number 1: ofw parents still thinks of their child as the child they left behind.

Example: iniwan na bata, binalikang teenager na

Still, they treat the child as bata kasi nga naman hindi nila nasaksihan paglaki ng anak.

This is not a blaming game ah, ito lang yung realidad na kailangan din sigurong intindihin na bawat sides ng ofw family para malaman kung paano mag-aadjust ang bawat panig. Kasi kids today are more advanced than kids before. Sobrang kalaban ang generation gap, lalo na at dalawang kultura din ang naglalayo sa pamilya.

Acceptance

When i was in College i realized this,
“The key to love is acceptance.”

When you have seen your love at their worst and knows every embarassing bits about the person, and you still accept him/her. You truly love this person.

Now that i’m outside the boundaries of my alumna, seen and met different kinds of people in different kinds of circumstances— i come back to “acceptance” with regards to where each of us came from, family, and how it affects our relationships.

“Acceptance is a make or a break in a relationship.”

I am hung up with the imperfections of my family and couldn’t muster accepting the circumstances of an overseas working mother and a dead father.

Its hard to embrace the changes and our differences, my mother and i, but i know, for our own sake, i must.

I know i love her, and that she loves me. But we have grown apart. How do you show your love?

We have some agreements but
Our words have different meanings when delivered
We choose different paths and
We both want to be heard

no one is relenting

Her — being the mother who sacrificed for her family
I — the daughter who was left behind

Both lived independently

I understand how it came to be like this but i am having a hard time accepting the consequence

But must i dwell on these facts? Or focus on my present?

A response to an Uncle’s gift.

“The more talent that a sports, business, or service team possesses, the greater potential it has– and the better its leader can be.” – Beyond Talent, John Maxwell

It was exactly like that yesterday, uncle. I had two reliable PAs that it has become better for me to do my job. It felt great. I had less leg work but more decisions to consider and see through. Over all, it wasn’t bad at all. I like seeing the team less stressed and more smiles.

In my early days as PA, there were lots of stressful moments, breaking points, and shed tears. I don’t want to experience that anymore. Less of that is “more” for me. I was able to deal with things more effectively than before and it helped a lot that i had my efficient team.

My superior was really helpful too. Telling me what should i now consider and this next quote from the book expressed what i had to struggle with.

“Intelligence, imagination, and knowledge are essential resources, but only effectiveness converts them into results.”

Great things are always in my mind and its hard for me to bring it out and see its full potential. It saddens me.

I also remember Malcolm Gladwell in his book, “Outliers”. He mentioned successful people didn’t depend solely on their talent. They had bountiful backgrounds they used to their advantage. Like, Bill Gates, i think, he practically grew up in a computer where computer was so exclusive still because he has the means to be close to it. When computer was still evolving, he was there to see it and even helped build it.

I may not be well endowed like Gates, but if i could just know and look at what i have now to use to my advantage and have a lot of guts to actually to it. I need all the guts i can in the industry i have now. If i dream of doing something, then maybe i could step up and ask for it… Things like that.

I’m trying to gather my wits to muster that. But for now, i’ll try to learn how to CAST well, and speak up if i want to be faring well and great at my present job.

I hope i’m still not confusing you, uncle. Hehe

Thanks so much po for the book!

Donna

Listen

You shouldn’t ask if you wouldn’t listen.

It’s irritating. It’s not fair. It’s a lot of things. And none good. If you must know, I want and I need to be able to smile at the end of this.

Few words, four days.

4 Days Diary

just being alone.

Frustrated

Not okay

pissed off

To do’s

My list of things to do consists of 3 parts:
1. Yours
2. Them
3. Favors

And the “them” list continues to grow, and it demands more attention from “them”.

Oh, scared the job might not be done? Scared because it’s done second-hand. And i dislike ungrateful “them”.

And then, the “favors”. They’re the 2nd most restless. Afraid for their own “thems”, at their own risk.

Hey! My own to do list is much as important as yours are!

Whew! I might as well enjoy my tea as i wait for “them” to do something, again, for them. After all, i work for them.

Now, where’s the fun in that? You make them. You live it. You must survive, i must survive.

It is hard to contain your anger, disappointments. It is harder to still feel good, enthusiastic about your work with those triggered emotions.

But it is possible. So, why not try. In the end, it is still my life that get’s affected. This is still my story, i can’t let them win. I must. I should.

So, let the story unfold with my smile at the end of the page,eh?

Be sensible!

When your career becomes your whole life,
When your workmates become your constant companion,
And when these people just makes you feel worst,
And when you don’t have your family to talk to and hold just to keep you moving,
And when even close friends are hard to reach, or loose the courage to, just to refresh yourself again.

Then your doomed. I’m warning you, that place you’re going is sad.

I am tempted to write ‘alone’. That you are alone. But no.

You are never alone.

God is where you are. Wherever that is, whomever you’re with. All the time. Always.

You just had to listen carefully, see closely. Open yourself up to Him.
Don’t wallow in your sorrow. Don’t give up easily. Fight for your sanity, happiness. Fight for your life. Live.

Talk to Him, acknowledge His Divine presence. Remember Him. Live Him.

Be sensible, kid.

Which way, Lord? Nawawala ata ako?

Have you felt so alone, ung tipong you’re meant for something big, great, sensible than where you are, now? That you don’t have enough will to want that coz, obviously you’re at lost to what exactly you would want to have or maybe you’re just confuse at the moment. You know that passing thought that is missed and is actually the answer you’ve been looking for? I just feel useless, like today, im not doing or maybe not doing
enough for that goal. That one mission. That something that i can pour out all my energy, my passion. I want to live that passion, been wanting to– to really feel alive. That i do exist for something. Something i am really happy doing. Unmindful of the stress or fatigue it might cause because you are blissfully satisfied with your cause. Alam mo yun? Yung feeling na ganun?

*originally texted to climax